you guys are so wonderful! really. thank you. I had a good cry last night....it helped. I just needed to grieve some things here. I just don't know how long ill be gone. So...for my sanity. I just need to let go of New York. I realize it became something to me that was maybe even a tad on the unhealthy side. I know we as artists can all relate to being passionate about what we do....but....I don't ever want my job to define me as a person. And...maybe I was drifting that direction. Most of it was good, healthy passion and drive...but....some of it was also wanting acceptance, acknowledgment, and....an ego boost?? That is hard to say out loud, but, it was totally something I had to check myself on. WHY was I doing this? Because I love makeup, I love people, I love art, and I want to provide for my family. NOT because I want people noticing me and telling me how amazing or talented I am. Am I making sense. I hope so. I am in a weird emotional place....feeling vulnerable. ahhhh, well.....Ive been through harder times. And I love makeup. Completely. I do it wherever I am.

ok, done now

you really are a very special group of people. thanks for all you guys have added to me as an artist and a person

xxxxxoooooo


im lookin you up steph!!!!!!